Do you sometimes struggle with being in the world? Do you feel like you’re not of this world, that it seems to confront you at every turn, and hitherto you have to find a way to exist in it?
Do you yearn for more, but you can’t seem to find what you seek in the world? I often feel like I’m a stranger here – that I don’t belong – and yet, I’m here. I have to find a way to be in this world, this life that feels too harsh, that often grates against the me that feels so sensitive, so affectionate, so not of this world.
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Why do I feel like I don’t belong? I shy away from the violence, conflict, and animosity that dominates “the world”. Whenever I can, I retreat from the hustle and bustle of a world that clamours for my attention and draws empty promises about commodities and knowledge that it deems I should have … for what? To be popular? To have what everybody else has? To respond to the latest tendency? To feel a sense of attainment? To attain the outer measurement of success? To find sense? To matter?
For so long, I sought to quench my internal thirst within the outer world. I fantasized I had to look harder, longer, in different places with various people. It was only when I realized that what I sought existed within me and that I had been looking in the wrong places that I discovered solace and fulfilment beyond anything I had suffered fleetingly in “peoples lives”.
I realized that the outside world could not provide anything that is able to fulfil my inner desires. The “more” that I attempted this, I realised that it could not be found in any “thing”, any new or existing knowledge, or surely, anything that can be attained. I might experience brief moments of euphoria or success, but the ardour never stays. It never absolutely quenched my internal thirst for more. Instead, it appeared to lessen and I experienced myself looking to create another ordeal in which I could feel that “high” again.
The appearance couldn’t and wouldn’t stand because it was based on the acquisition or attainment or know-how of something external. The only direction to feel it again was to look for the next best thing to acquire, attain, or know, and it became clear that this would be a never-ending repetition. Nothing that gives rise within the external nature could truly answer my inner desire for more because that label comes from my being, my force, my true Self.
Do you feel an inner calling? Do you feel a yearning penetrating within your being? Are you giving this attention? That inner call asks us to remember who we truly are, to take off the blinders that prevent us from insuring our true-life purpose as spiritual beings. It asks us to look beyond the image that we are separate characters since we all experience the same feelings. It asks us to realize that without the inner light that our colours bring to other people, we are just empty shells. We are the life vitality that we can feel pulsing within us – the wise, tranquil space in which we find ourselves – when we get still and focus inwards.
That internal summoning reminds us to seek more than we can see and know with the five senses of our physical body. To begin to open to deeper levels of purpose, interaction, and communion. The part that calls to us and asks us to pay attention to what has lasting sense, to what speaks to our inner truth.
Opening Up To Our Truth
As our awareness opens to the truth of who we really are, the outer world loses its demands. We begin to realize that we can’t find the means in the empty promises of the ego because it exists outside of our true nature. Rather, the means that we attempt to find can only be found within – in the still, gentle attendance that is our feeling. It is there that we can acknowledge the serenity we have wanted for, the knowing that we have felt, and the passion and meaning that we have sought in our outer nature. It is there that we find our truth.
In order to be in this life, I have to spend some “soul time” every day. I have to get gentle and go within to the still presence that waits for me to return. I have to spend time in thought and meditation so that I can stay grounded in a world that is founded on the impression that we are all separate, all in competition for scarce assets, all striving to get ahead and be successful. Isn’t it all based on an inner desire to become something, to be somebody?
The recognition that we matter unconditionally can only be found from where the thought originated … on the inside. The beginning of this realisation tells us where to look, and as soon as we are willing to do that, we begin to find our method back home to the Divine, to God, our genuine Source and Home.
How do you find your “grounding” in order to be allowed to be in this physical existence? How do you respond to your inner wanting for more? I would love to hear your opinion on your spiritual progress and the practices you use to stay in yout truth. Namaste.
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